Welcome to my happily ever after... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- pros and cons So I'm a pussy....admitting it is the first step, right? I sent Greg a note on Monday morning listing the things that I'd left at his house, and that I'd like to setup a time where we could exchange our stuff. Well, he called about 6:30 Monday night saying that he didn't mean that he wanted to break up and asked where I got that idea from. Perhaps it was from him telling me that the things that got on my nerves weren't worth working on for our relationship. So I told him that we'd just have to see how things turned out and that I'd talk to him the next day. So last night after work, I met Carlos at the gym (can you believe it?). There was a kids karate class going on in the group exercise room, and we had a good time watching them. I stayed until about 6:00 and then went home and watched TV. Well, Greg called around 7:30, and our conversation was so strained that I finally told him that I'd just talk to him later. You know what I'm finding out? I AM DOING FINE!!!! Unlike in the past after breakups when I wallow in my memories, I have been putting one foot in front of the other and keeping on. Sure from time to time I think of something I did with Greg and get a tad wistful, but that's okay and only to be expected for a while. I am doing just fine! In fact, despite our talk the other day saying that we weren't officially breaking up until we figure a few things out, I think it best to end the whole thing. Let's break this down. Things I like about Greg: 1) he helped me when I moved out of my folks house Wow! The things I like about him are the things that I can get from just a regular friend, not a boyfriend! Plus, to quote the great (and newly rotund) Janet Jackson, what have you done for me lately? Not much. He bought me a shrimp cocktail the other day as a surprise. Big deal! He helped me paint my apartment and then move my furniture, but that was in the past. Big deal! I can't hold onto something because of what he did in the past. Things I don't like about Greg: 1) he doesn't listen to me When is the last time he kissed me when I walked in the door after a few days of not seeing him? I can't even remember. When's the last time he looked me in the eye and told me that he loved me? I don't think that ever happened. He would say "I wuvvies you" every once in a while, but he also says that to the dogs. I'm in a toxic relationship. I know what I need to do....so will I actually do it? 10:04 a.m. - 2005-11-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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