Welcome to my happily ever after...
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Well, my weekend was pretty good. Friday night, I went home, cooked a nice dinner for Carlos and me, then lay on the heating pad watching TV. Last of the partiers, no? Well, around 11:00, Carlos broke out a bottle of red wine, and after a couple of glasses, we both fell asleep rather soundly. I got up around 8 AM Saturday morning and went to the gym. After a pretty good workout, I went home, showered and ran out the door to see Daredevil (finally) with Carlos. Ok...the movie was decent, but I have to say that I was not impressed with the way that things turned out with Jennifer Garner's character. She was the whole reason I wanted to see that movie! She did look good in her little leather outfit though. I want guns like Jennifer, I must say.
Saturday night I ended up going to that sex party. I didn't have as much fun at this one as I did the last one for some reason. I think I was really, really nervous, and at one point, someone broke out a bottle of wine. That was my downfall. When I'm nervous, I tend to drink way too fast, and I honestly think I didn't have a good time because I was rather tipsy. Not tipsy to the point that I wasn't aware of what was going on...quite the contrary in fact. However wine tends to make me a bit numb, and I never came in the 6 hours that I was there! There were a number of cute and fun guys there, and I have to hand it to the host...he manages to find some good looking guys that want to come over. One guy was there that does porn...in fact he was leaving Sunday to go the New Orleans to shoot some porn for Chi Chi Larue supposedly. He was cute....and man, he really liked being fucked. He lay on the bed with his ass in the air as guy after guy rammed him...it was like a freakin assembly line. Turns out he was only 20 years old! I guess a lot of those porn guys are quite young. I felt like Mister Magoo when he asked how old I was and I had to say 31. My how time flies.
I don't know if I'll be going to any more of those parties. I think the anticipation of what could happen usually is better than what actually occurs. Sure, there were some hot moments that stuck in my head, but on the whole (hole...LOL), I left feeling dishonest and cheap.
I find myself wondering why it's hard for gay men to stay monogamous in their relationships over time. I have an interesting array of theories on this. First of all, I don't think that gay relationships should be governed by the same rules or mores as heterosexual relationships. It's just different. Secondly, gay men are just a horny bunch of bastards. It's flat out true, and given that men are inherently pigs, when you get two guys together it's just a different dynamic. I've heard that men have a basic need to spread their seed amongst as many others for the basic point of procreation. For example dogs are that way. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm a big homo...do I have the same programming as a straight guy?
9:53 a.m. - 2003-02-24
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