Welcome to my happily ever after...
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Viagra and high beams
I'm going to be good and make another entry today. It is absolutely freezing today here at work and people can see my nipples sticking out through my shirt. I got the high beams on today.
I think I'm going to start my yoga again now that my back is feeling better. I was a mess there for a while and I guess it finally just went away. I always feel so relaxed after my class. I want to learn more.
Things are going well with Carlos. I have been spending lots of time with him....much more that before. I know there are so many things I can do to be a better boyfriend, and I sometimes find myself struggling to do the right thing.
I know that I have mentioned before that I am somewhat addicted to online porn. I come home from work, and the first thing I want to do is get online and see what I can find. The thrill of the hunt...
Well to make my point, jacking off to online porn makes me less than receptive to having sex with my boyfriend all the time, and let me tell you, if you have never gone out with a latin boy, they are horny ALL the time. Carlos would have sex three or four times a day if he could, and I can't keep up, particularly after I've just had sex with myself two hours before I see him. I never thought that being 30 would do that to me. Maybe I need Viagra.
I'm a bad boyfriend.
Speaking of Viagra, I don't think I ever wrote about my one experience with Viagra. One night a few months back before Carlos and I got back together, I was an online whore and hooked up with this guy who lives around the corner from me. Well, he got up at one point and came into the room with a medicine bottle and asked if I wanted a Viagra. I was like "sure...I wanna see what it's like."
Let me tell you. It was like nothing I had ever seen before. They say that Viagra won't do anything to you without some sort of sexual stimulation. So for example, it won't make you horny per se, but it will make your equipment hard. Well, I am already horny 24 hours a day, but my equipment just may not cooperate 5 or 6 times a day like I would like it to. Well I didn't have that problem with Viagra. I came about 5 times in three hours, and then stayed rock hard for 12 hours later from things as simple as my dick rubbing around in my underwear when I walked. It was crazy and almost a relief when it finally wore off. I think I had blisters after it finally ran its course.
Did I mention that Eckerd's around the corner from here at work has 2 liter bottles of Diet Pepsi on for $.49? I am thoroughly caffeinated today.
I must be on something to have told you the Viagra story. Speaking of, I saw that guy at the gym the other day and we pretended that we didn't know each other. Isn't that the strangest thing...hooking up? You have very intimate sex, complete with kissing and fucking the shit out of each other, then the next time you see them you don't even raise an eyebrow at each other. I am not a big fan of that part. I wouldn't have fucked them if I didn't like SOMETHING about them, but for some reason in the gay world sex and emotions can be two very separate things. I am better at this part the older I get. When I was 20, I would have been devastated by someone that didn't call me after a hookup. Now that I am 30, I obligatorily give my phone number or say "email me sometime" knowing full well that I will never talk to this guy again. Plus in the odd event I do run into him, it is almost considered polite NOT to speak. That way they don't have to explain to their friends how they know you.
Get it? I'm not sure if I do.
8:05 a.m. - 2002-07-11
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