Welcome to my happily ever after...
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rationalizing
My calves are so sore today that I can hardly walk. I'm doing the old man shuffle today, and I think my coworkers are getting a kick out of it. I decided that I should maybe start working out my lower half so I don't eventually topple over because my bird legs can't handle the weight.
I don't really have much to write about. I've been emailing back and forth with Carlos all morning. Still, I'm not really sure what's up with that, but it has been pleasant. We also talked on the phone a while last night, and it was good to banter back and forth like we used to. What am I thinking you ask? I don't know. I haven't really put any thought into my intentions yet.
I know that a large part of my problem with Carlos was my drinking. I didn't realize it then, but hindsight is 20/20, huh?
I blamed a lot of our problems on him, where actually about 99% of the problem was me. Granted, he handled a lot of things wrong, but I try to remember that he dealt with things the only way he knew how, which was usually pouting.
Ok...I see what I am doing. I am rationalizing about something.
10:42 a.m. - 2002-05-15
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