Welcome to my happily ever after...
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running to the future
I got this email from Danny yesterday:
Hey Jonathan-
Sorry I've been so out of sorts lately. I'm not really sure what's going on... I'll try and explain better later- I just wanted to say a quick 'hello'.
Well, yes, he has been out of sorts, but he doesn't have to bother with explanations. I already know he has issues.
He and I had tentative plans to go do something tonight, but given the current state of affairs, I don't see that coming to fruition. I won't allow it.
I went running last night on the track around Rice University. I probably ran close to five miles, and I ran and ran as if my past was chasing me. Past the huge old oak trees, past the other runners, past the buildings.
At one point, I ran by a beautiful old church that had a sign that said "Open for Prayer" out front. I walked up and looked around, and I felt such an overwhelming urge to go in. I actually walked up the stairs, then retreated back down out of fear. I then circled the building two times trying to find the courage to go in. I'm ashamed to say that I never did. There were people milling around inside and I was afraid if I walked in someone would yell "What are you doing in here?!!"
So I just ran off without doing anything, mentally making a note of their website listed on the sign. I will check it out today.
On the way home, it suddenly hit me. I realized that maybe I'm not running from my past anymore....
Quite possibly I'm running towards my future.
8:30 a.m. - 2002-04-24
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