Welcome to my happily ever after...
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porn star sex
Only 45 more minutes til I can go home from work! This whole day has dragged by.
My cop came over again last night. Sometimes, he'll just be sitting there watching TV, and i find myself staring at him. That's when he catches me looking at him and asks "What are you thinking right now?" What a beautiful man...the insecure me sometimes wonders what he sees in me.
That's when I have to go into Stuart Smalley mode and tell myself I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and dammit, I like myself! Seriously, I think that the last year or so really has nicked my confidence. I went through about a year where I was unemployed (although going to grad school), and I was drinking and going out almost every night. What the hell was I thinking? Now that I am gainfully employed, I have calmed down considerably.
I'm supposed to go out to dinner and a movie tomorrow night with Ethan. It will be good to actually go somewhere and get out of my house with him. I must admit, we spend all our time naked when we are together. I have never been all that sexually experimental, but with him, we have had porn star sex. I am not exaggerating...is this what sex is supposed to be like?
Not sure what I am doing tonight. I've been really good about going to go work out, and I'm sure that's what I'll probably do again. Part 3 of my Stephen King movie isn't on until tomorrow....
Gonna go tidy up to go home.
3:39 p.m. - 2002-01-30
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