Welcome to my happily ever after...
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Day 6
I have been sweeping out the cobwebs for a few days. I've been in a fog since October, and I have let so many things go since then. I spent the weekend trying to get things back in order, both externally and internally, and although I realize it's going to be a slow process, I feel good about where I'm at.
It was very symbolic to take the heavy curtains down off the windows and let the light back in my house. Well, they weren't curtains per se...it was more like a shower curtain and a couple of old dark sheets, but you get the jist. I couldn't stand for the light to come in because my eyes were always so sensitive from staying up for days at a time, and I'm totally getting off on my house feeling like a big tanning bed again. Let there be light bitches!
Let me say one thing: crystal meth withdrawal is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Sure they say there aren't any true physical withdrawal symptoms, but I think that's a crock. I can't seem to get enough sleep, I'm a grouchy sum' bitch, and I'm eating anything that doesn't eat me first.
That all said though, my mental state is a walk in the park compared to a week ago. Also, why is it that Catwoman is always on TV when I get sober? The last time a couple of years ago, I watched Catwoman on TNT until I had the lines memorized, and damned if it wasn't on TV Saturday night. Catwoman for some reason really likes me sober.
That said, I'm proud to say that today is Day 6 of my sobriety.
3:48 p.m. - 2008-02-11
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