Welcome to my happily ever after...
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01/10/08
Ok, I realize that I've put off writing again long enough. I didn't want to come back here until I had something positive to say, however I can't wait any longer.
I realized the other day that the past few months I have been a shell of myself....a ghost if you will. A ghost surrounded by other ghosts. The people that I have been choosing to surround myself with are in the same dire situation I'm in. "I hate myself....you hate yourself too? We should hang out."
I'm definitely at a fork in the road right now. I have been sober a few days now, and with that comes some clarity: I am faced with deciding if my life is worth saving or if things are already so fucked up that I should keep going down the same path. In just 3 short months, I've managed to fall pretty far, and although I haven't hit bottom with a resounding thud, it can't be far away.
2007 was such an odd year, full of soaring highs and abyssmal lows. In many respects I feel as if it was an ongoing series of getting my ass kicked, followed by getting up to walk away only to have another situation kick my ass. I can't let 2008 turn out the same way. I simply can't.
10:12 a.m. - 2008-01-10
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