Welcome to my happily ever after...
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regular brain vs. dick brain
Carlos and I went out to Cafe Express last night for dinner and had a long talk. I don't open up to many people at all, and when I do, it's not Carlos, but last night I let it flow. We talked about a lot of things from my diappointment with where I am professionally to my dissatisfaction with where my body is right now. Our conversation really ran the gamut. I think that we've needed to do that for a long time.
After that, we came home and watched Big Brother and snuggled on the couch. I hate to admit that I found myself into this new season. A couple of those boys are hot! Great....yet another TV show that I'm prone to become a slave to.
I have got to stop watching so much TV! I find it much healthier though that going home, jacking off to porn, and smoking a pack of cigs like I did before I moved in with Carlos. I'm just killing brain cells now rather than killing lung cells. I sure do miss porn though.
You know what else I miss? SEX! I haven't gotten off since Sunday because the doctor told me to give it a rest until I was well. I'm not well yet. You'd think that a huge shot in my ass and that antibiotic would have me well by now, but I'm still oozing. I figure that if by the end of the day I'm not any better I'm going to call the clinic and tell them that I need something else.
If I didn't love my dick so much, I swear I'd cut the damn thing off. Not only is it not feeling too cute right now, but it gets me into way too much trouble. I think that my dick has a separate brain sometimes. There is a switch somewhere in my body that switches between my regular brain and my dick brain. Unfortunately my dick brain is much more footloose and fancy free than my regular Jonathan brain, and that is a big problem.
9:57 a.m. - 2003-07-10
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