Welcome to my happily ever after...
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new desk
I haven�t had much to write about lately. There really hasn�t been too terribly much going on. Of course, I lie in bed at night trying to fall asleep while my brain churns out long elaborate entries that I plan to write down the next day. Then when I sit down ready to write, they are gone. I would make a terrible writer.
I moved desks today to my new department. I like it so far. I love change�I think nothing keeps the mind snappier than throwing it a curve ball every once in a while. The only bad thing about my new desk is that I am right by the wall by all the managers� offices, therefore I have to surf the internet on the sly. I tend to only update my diary while I am at work, and somehow I feel that my meager entries will only become even more meager.
I am struggling so hard with smoking right now. I know I shouldn�t do it. I know that there are 4000 chemicals in a typical cigarette. Yet why do I do it? Because I am hopelessly addicted.
I have a friend (ex-friend?) named Regis that is addicted to cocaine. I look at the whole situation with such intense disdain, yet my smoking habit really is not that terribly different. We are both looking for that quick fix.
So what will it take for me to quit? Good question. I think the first thing I need to implement is a change of scenery because I am addicted to my routine way more than the nicotine itself. I somehow cannot get on the computer at night without chain smoking. Perhaps I just shouldn�t get on the computer (to look at porn), and that would alleviate the situation right there. However, let�s try to deal with one addiction at a time, okay? I can�t give up all my vices all at once, can I?
The thing is, I need a hobby. Something that really interests me. Something somewhat healthy and productive.
Any suggestions?
What does everyone else do after they get off work at night?
12:33 p.m. - 2002-09-17
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