Welcome to my happily ever after...
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life as a nonsmoker
You know, one of the scariest things known to man is realizing that the qualities that most annoy you about others quite possibly are really the qualities that you may not like about yourself. One of my coworkers has an unnatural need to be right all the time, and he will literally spend hours to try to prove that he is right in a situation. It really irritates me that he has never admitted to be wrong about anything. I was thinking about that lying in bed this morning, and unfortunately I see a tiny bit of myself in him, and that scares me. I myself do not like to be wrong either. I guess it's all about choosing your battles wisely.
Have I mentioned that since I quit smoking, my sense of smell is unbelievable. This can be both good and bad. I was on the bus on the way home yesterday and a woman was eating an orange. It had the strongest aroma. It made me wonder if my olfactory senses are in overdrive right now, or if oranges really are that pungent. It smelled great. On the flip side, working downtown, there is a large population of homeless people. Well, they pee and poop right there on the sidewalks, and sometimes the smell can be overwhelming, particularly in 100 degree weather. Now that I am blessed with a bionic sense of smell, things like urine are enough to make me dry heave as I have a very weak stomach. I am quite sure that I looked like a queen extraordinaire yesterday walking through the streets of downtown pinching my nostrils to keep from gagging.
I have now been a nonsmoker for 5 days. I can do this...plus I haven't looked at porn in 5 days as well. For some reason, they go hand in hand.
I can do this. Life really is all about small victories.
To treat myself, I am going with K to eat gumbo at Zydeco. woo-hoo!
8:02 a.m. - 2002-08-22
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