Welcome to my happily ever after...
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goobersmooch extraordinaire
It's 2:11 PM, but somehow it seems like 7:00 at night. It's been a long morning/afternoon. I slept very poorly last night, and I finally gave up around 5:30 and got up early and went running. I thought that might energize me, but so far it's only made me sleepy. That's good I guess....I have a tanning appt at 5:30 and I can sleep while I'm in there.
I don't have any big plans tonight. I would like to pop in and get my hair cut, but other than that and tanning, zip. Last week, I went to the gym most nights, and that was good for me. It got me out of my house.
I didn't go to church on Sunday and I'm so disappointed in myself for that. I have got the get up the nerve to just go in there for the Sunday service and not worry about sitting by myself.
As an aside, I will never forget the first time I tried to go buy porn. It took me almost an hour to get up the nerve to go in the shop, and then once I did the butterflies in my stomach made me want to toss my cookies.
This sounds horrible to say, but why do I feel the get the same butterflies about something as harmless as church as I did when I went and bought "The Young and the Hung, Part 2"? Geez...
There's a really cute guy at the gym that I've seen the last few times I was there. I've seen him around for a while, but I can't quite ascertain where. Anywho, I kept catching him sneaking glances at me when I was working out Saturday afternoon, and then at one point, he came over at started lifting right beside me. If I weren't such a loser, I would have said hello when I caught him looking at me. Instead, I just sat there and tried to look cool, and after about 15 mins of that, he got up and walked off. Man, I really do need to work on my shyness issues...I'm a goobersmooch extraordinaire.
2:11 p.m. - 2002-04-29
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